I used to take great comfort from the text “The …

Comment on Coming Back To The Father by Peter.

I used to take great comfort from the text “The steps of a man are established by the LORD, when he delights in his way; though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong, for the LORD upholds his hand.” (Psalm 37:23-23)

But now I am confronted by “If you seek him, he will be found by you, but if you forsake him, he will cast you off forever.” (1 Chronicles 28:9)

What do you do, when you can’t believe any more?

Recent Comments by Peter

Private: How I Came To Settle On The Truth
In April 2010 year I was reading a Christian devotional entitled “Spiritual Oxygen: Are you getting it”, when I reached the part that talked about the Holy Spirit directing our lives it occurred to me that I had not been seeking the Holy Spirit’s direction for my life. I had assumed that it was God’s will for me to continue in my current employment and to undertake Christian activities as time permitted outside of work activities. I prayed about the matter and immediately felt a calling to Christian ministry.

I then recalled an article by the late Alan Redpath who mentioned that he had worked as an Accountant and had not thought any more of it until God impressed upon him of the need for obedience, which included our occupation. This led him to seek to understand God’s will and eventually led him into the ministry.

As I thought about the matter I wondered whether God had a ministry calling for me as two people had suggested this to in the preceding month, but I had dismissed the suggestion saying I did not think so. However I realised I had not sought the Lord’s direction on the matter and as I seriously considered the matter I realised that I was becoming more involved in ministry, both inside and outside of the Church. So that night I prayed about the matter and asked God to show me whether or not this was my calling.

The next morning as I was about to start my morning Bible study, using the “Every Day with Jesus” study notes I thought “well God will show me”. The text for study was Isaiah 61:1-11, when I got to verse 6, the words, “And you will be called priests of the Lord, you will be named ministers of our God” were highlighted in my heart.

A day later at work, I received an email from a former work colleague who said he thought that I had a calling from God for the Ministry. My former work colleague asked me to look where my heart lay on the matter. As soon as I did that I realised that my heart lay not in my paid employment, but rather the ministry opportunities that God had already started presenting to me.

In discussing the matter with my Christian friends I have been surprised that they all have said that they had already reached the conclusion that I had a ministry calling from God long before I did. Just yesterday a dear Christian friend told me that her daughter had said to her in church two weeks earlier, “You can see Peter has a calling form God, but he does not know where yet”.

That was 2010, fast forward to February 2015. I had been ordained a Christian Minister, one day I read a piece by a Biblical Scholar who in a matter of fact way pointed out how certain parts of the Old Testament could not be recording literal history. I asked myself, the question I had not dared ask myself before, “what if this is not true?” Over the period of my theological study I had been building up a steady list of issues in the Bible, in Christian history, in Christian theology and Christian experience that troubled me. Many of those issues came back to me at this time and I realised there were many issues I could not explain that seemed inconsistent with the Bible being true and Christianity real.

I then read the blogs of a few former Christian Ministers who had lost their faith, as I read their stories it was as though I was reading about myself.

It was the experiential aspect of Christianity that I found hardest to explain away. But after exploring how the mind works I have come to see how the experiential aspect of Christianity can be explained by the complexity of the human mind.

I have continued to look into these issues for the last six months, hoping for certainty, but I doubt that will ever be the case.

What I do ask myself is, “is it possible that the Bible could contain error and still be a divine book?” I say this because I am convinced that the book of Daniel, contains failed prophecy.

There is much more that I could say, but that will give you a flavor of my story.


Private: How I Came To Settle On The Truth
Glad I inspired your post. I find it interesting to know the stories of others. We seem to have reached different conclusions but I do appreciate the tone of your blog.


Private: Let The Little Children Come Unto Me
Dan, do really believe in your heart that every act of a non-believer is vile? This is what Psalm 14:1 says.

So when the former Australian ophthalmologist Fred Hollows provided eye sight saving operations for no cost to some of the worlds poorest people that was a vile act, because he did not believe in a god?


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